What they should tell you is to check your physics books. Balance is not rest. It is not quietude. It is what happens when all of the shoving and tugging and swirling and twisting forces in your life are equally matched, and for a moment there is what seems like deep silence but is really the hush in the eye of the storm.
Rachael saw my post on balance and sent this to me and Derek. She's right, competing forces are a kind of balance.
And I guess that's what I meant by finding out what balance means to me. I don't quite know what forces _should_ be pulling and pushing me.